“People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great Love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with Love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters. Pain is feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain. ” -Jim Morrison
Kathryn was diagnosed with diagnosed with Lymphoma on May 31th, 2016. She has successfully defeated her disease. She is the mother of 2 beautiful girls.
“May 31, 2016 I had a biopsy to remove an enlarged lymph node from my neck. We would later learn that it was in fact 6 lymph nodes that fused together. Two of the nodes carrying the Hodgkin’s Lymphoma cells”
“My journey… I found a lump in my neck above my collarbone right after the holidays in 2016, I went to one of those Urgent Care places and they did some blood work, which came back normal. I was told that it was an inflamed lymph node and given a prescription for antibiotics and steroid pack and sent on my way.
While I was on the antibiotic and steroids the lump seemed to go away but within 24 hours of finishing the medication the lump came back but only this time it was bigger. So, of course, I went back to the same place and again they did more blood work and again it came back normal. So the nurse practitioner gave me another antibiotic which was supposed to be stronger than the last and another steroid pack. Again then lump went away while I was taking the medication and came back as soon as I finished it.
I went back again for the third time. This time I was told that because I was on Medicaid and my blood work didn’t show anything I couldn’t have an MRI. I remember leaving that day thinking well if my blood work isn’t showing anything it’s nothing serious. The boy was I wrong…. fast forward to April, I finally made enough money to get off Medicaid and switch to a better insurance company and was finally able to go back to my PCP that I’ve gone to since I was a kid.
I went it to see him on May 3rd by the 17th I had an MRI, my Dr immediately called one of his buddies at Carti Cancer center and my biopsy was scheduled for the 23rd. On May 31, 2016, was the day my world came crashing down around me, that’s the day I was told I had Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. I was started on ABVD by the end of June, I had two setbacks during treatment due to being neutropenic. I finished treatment (8 rounds) on October 20, 2016. “
Motivation to fight cancer
“My two beautiful girls.”
“Having to quit working due to being Neutropenic. Being secluded for 6 months really sent me into a very dark place during my treatment.”
Message to other fighter
“On your good days get out and live life! Go on as many adventures as you can. You can still live life to the fullest even going through treatment! I wish I had someone to tell me that when I was going through treatment. I’ve since learned that even going through treatment you can still get out and live life. I think if I had I wouldn’t have been in such a dark place mentally.