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Cancerbro - In the throes of a depressive state of mind
warriormegsie Breast Cancer
Posted on July 15, 2018, 6:57 p.m.
In the throes of a depressive state of mind
I realized I’m in the throes of a depressive state of mind yesterday. I’m going to blog about it and post later. The anger and frustration of going through cancer and the physical changes still weighs heavily on me. I thought after two years since my last chemo and radiation, I would be better. My final surgery was last year. The grief and anger is still so palpable. I notice people in and outside cancerland rarely ask if I’m doing OK because I come across as very strong, humorous and put together. In actuality, I am broken and hurting. It’s like no one gets it. In this instance, being told to be positive (B+), trust in God and let it go is not helping. I’ve already left a voicemail for my psychiatrist. I see that as a sign of strength because my current coping skills are no longer working.